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Love/Hate Relationship with Roller Coasters 1 comment

This week has been crazy…oh my gosh, a complete roller coaster of emotions!
At the end of last week I attended the funeral of a cousin.  It was a beautiful service, but sad, of course.  The night before the funeral, my co-worker’s mom died.  I feel for her…she’s SO close to her mom, and has expressed to me her fear of not being ready to lose her mom yet, and then it happened anyway.  My heart aches for her.
Between covering for my co-worker (which I am HAPPY to do), putting in extra hours at work, and administering dozens of tests, I have become worn out in the workplace.
Also between the 8 doctor appointments and 1 dentist appointment in the last 2 weeks, I’ve become worn out with healthcare.
Add to that the DOZENS of “accidents” my son has had in just the last two days (but that’s another post for another day), I’ve become a bit ornery in the home.
Oh yeah, and in the last 4 days I’ve begun experiencing migraines, blurred vision, bloating, stomach aches, nausea, acid reflux, painful joints, and the like…you know, the standard things that come when I eat gluten…except that I haven’t come near anything containing gluten in months.
I’ve not been a real treat to be around, and I am ashamed of it.  My family definitely deserves better than what they’ve been getting, and I’m feeling like a pretty big schmuck…or something.
On Sunday, my daughter (10 years old) got a phone call from one of her best friends.  She was told that her friend has not been at school for the last week because she’d been really sick and during tests doctors found a TUMOR!!  In this sweet 9-year old girl!  My daughter has been heartsick and crying for 2 days straight, even though we didn’t yet know if the tumor was malignant.  It’s so hard to convince a young child not to worry when they hear the word “tumor” or possibly “cancer”.  She kept asking me if I would PROMISE that her friend would be okay.  Oh my gosh.
It’s days like Sunday that I wished there was a parenting manual.
But!  There are always the good times, too, the moments that buoy us back up for another day:
Today we got the fantastic news that the tumor was BENIGN!!!!  Yay!!  The squealing and hugging that went on in my house this afternoon could probably be heard by a few of our neighbors.
Munchkin got to go skiing for the first time ever today with her fellow schoolmates.  Best field trip ever, I hear.
I’m exhausted.  Emotionally and physically.  I have become so ditzy in the last few months, it’s ridiculous.  I hope it’s just me not handling stress well and missing the sun, because I swear, I’m lucky I haven’t burned the house down (more than once), driven off the road while losing focus, or left my kids at school.  Eek!


OH MY GOSH 10 comments

So, as you may or may not know, I’ve been working very hard at night after the kids are in bed to pay down my debt.  It’s been slow and steady, and I’ve begun seeing some real progress.  It’s relaxing, really, to know that my efforts are paying off, and that helps me sleep better at night.


Imagine with me, if you will, the horror:



I left my computer on yesterday afternoon and went to start dinner.  My buddy boy,

Oh, so sweet and innocent (NOT), decided to hop onto the computer and do some playing.  I came in 10 minutes later (WHY did I leave him alone for that long???) and found that he’d been up to some mischief.

Major mischief.

I walked up and looked at the computer screen, and to my utter dismay, I saw that in TEN minutes he’d managed to rack up more than $4,500 of debt on my account!!!

I’m not even kidding.   I went to the help section of the site, tried to cancel out his actions, but it WOULDN’T let me!!!  Oh my gosh. So as you can imagine, I was freaking out.

Anyway, after trying everything possible online to fix the problem, I had to make some decisions.  Call and complain?  Can’t do that, it’s my own dang fault, you know?  I got myself in this mess, and I’m just gonna have to get myself out.

HOW did he manage to pull something horrific like that off?  You tell me….








I mean, my gosh!  I was playing SO WELL lately!!  And now my debt score is -$5630.